Been a while since I last updated here..

 

as usual, many things have occured in these past few mths...

many, i wish not to say and some, i wished i wld have done differently..

 

but well....wadeva happened had happened and time doesnt turn back.

 

on a side note, i juz came back frm korea and hk.

was a rather impromptu decision to fly, partly becoz of wad happened and i decided to juz get out of SG for a while to clear myself.

and partly becoz i need to clear leave and oso been a while since i last flew.

 

been kept rather bz ever since i came back thou.

 

tues nite was a rather solemn nite by the date itself...wasnt rly in a mood to tok dat nite..

and to top it off,

i had to go and order my grandpa's bday cake.....and din knoe a haagen daaz's 1.5kg ice cream cake actually costed $130!!

but yeah..i wanted a split flavour tiramisu and rum rasin..but ended up wif strawberry chezcake+ cookies and cream and the person said my 2 flavours had wine in them..thu melt faster

 

livia fb-ed me on tues during work to jio for a korean bbq, so we ended up eating it at novena sq on wed aft work, and wc, jio-ed jj, ger, ym and al.

bg came to join us aft dat and we went harry's for a drink.

perhpas coz i drank some..thus i was much more able to tok dat nite...

 

thurs was typical, wanted to develop my travel pics but end up didnt....

ran at bedok and went back home to rest

 

i drove on fri...and decided not to stay in office..and since i got pics to develop, drove to pw wif liz (she halfday) to develop my pics...i den went home to carry on working (Werk frm home)...jiyi saw my pics on fb and was tempted by the coffee...and since i didnt rly had plans and she kenna flown kite, we decided to head down siglap...so i went to pick her up aft work and we went down coffee club. showed her my travel pics, asked her about her wedding dinner, drank coffee and had cake den sent her back

 

woke up real early on sat morning to rush down to vivocity to take part in the great sg treasure hunt and kinda injuired my toes...zzz

but was a rather unique experience...thou i wldnt wanna wake up liek 6.30am again juz to play smth.

bought some new clothes for work and headed home to nap...before waking up and heading down to funan for jason's 26th.

13 of the primary sch cls turned up...quite a big number...it always amazes me how pretty the girls have grown..haha and how articulate the guys are..

dinner was a fine dining experience at bistro amigo, and we headed down to c.nai hk cafe at east coast to catch up..

(ev1 stays in the east, marine parade, enous, telok kuaru, bedok, east coast road etc..so it's always a gd idea!)

 

sun was my grandpa bday lunch at red star...and i actually bumped into vance while waiting..(he came for bfast)...

serene called me to ask about the blades thingy as she and her bf wanted to learn..told her since we mtg for joseph's bday nxt sat evening..maybe i can bring her to check out the shops at ecp nxt sat.

 

Quite adept.

 

时光穿不断 流转在从前
刻骨的变迁 不是遥远
再有一万年 深情也不变
爱像烈火般蔓延

记忆是条长线 盘旋在天边
沉浮中以为 情深缘浅
你再度出现 我看见誓言
承诺在水天之间

回头看 不曾走远 依然目光此生不换
要分散 不习惯 怎么算 都太难
分开之后更勇敢 愿这爱 世代相传

唱不完忘情泉 不让你如烟
前尘再怀恋 望剑如面
挥舞的瞬间 别再闭上眼
错过惊世的依恋

回头看 不曾走远 眷恋一人流连忘返
多少汗 够温暖 你哭喊 我呼唤
听清耳边的呢喃 别害怕 风轻云淡   

1 of my fren (J) was telling me just now over sms ...

(some of you might knoe who I am refering to here...)

(and Leanne did mention this to me a year ago),

that the lesser you expect, the lesser the disappointment...

and with less disappointments..you stay happier.

although i tried learning it, adapting and adopting it during that time 1 year ago,

it was not an easy feat for me.

 

Anyway, back to my fren J

J used to like a guy and even took the initative...

however, the guy did not reciprocate back her efforts and always gave her mixed signals.

towards the end..my fren got tired and decided to let go...

she had expected the guy to give her an ans..

 

It never came.

And it's been 3 years.

He never approached her to give a proper closure.

Till today, she still doesnt have any ans on why.

 

Granted, she's happily attached now..

but everytime when she's down..

she would bring up the topic of this guy to me again and lament how irresponsible he is..

 

And i always tell her...she never did manage to truely let go..and its shadow is still looming over her...even till today

 

All she replied me was

' some ans are not worth waiting for if the other party never have the intent to clarify things in the 1st place'

 

Perhaps...she is right...

 

But irregardless....I

Hope for an answer

Expecting none

Lesser Disappointment

 

Maybe I finally did manage to understand the meaning of

"With lesser expectations, comes lesser disappointment"

 

And with that said, hence closes another chapter of my life...

seems like I unknowingly ended up in a side quest again....

mistaking it in my main quest...but even so,

I nvr did manage to achieve nor fully understand this side quest's objective..

 

*refer to my post on Life=RPG? for a better understanding*

My left side of my body had been out of action for 3 days liao...

my left leg and left arm were like totally KO-ed aft sunday..

 

initally thot my left leg recovered when i woke up dis morning..but after a while in office..the strain came back again..

 

argh,,,,oh well..it doesnt help dat there are other issues too..

What happens when a Sine curve meets a Cosine curve?

 

Everything cancels out.. =)

 

What happens when 2 Sine curves meet?

 

Superposition! =(

Was reading an article about Airborne...and some thoughts came to my mind...

 

Ever wondered what it's like to be free falling?

(When I mean by free falling here, it's the sort of free falling from way
up high in the sky)

Initially you might feel a sense of awe, to be finally free of the gravity
that binds us to the ground and to be able to experience the wonders up in
the sky.

But as we all know, gravity would soon pull us back down to Earth...

How would you feel if you're in a constant state of free falling?

What might initally feel wonderous could be too much to handle...and end up being exorbitant...

It no longer feels that amazing to be in an endless free fall

Was chatting with a fren of mine..and she commented dat I seemed to have changed.

But alas..it was for the worse.

 

She scolded me and asked where did the self-confident guy who once had his own personal style whom she used to know disappear to.

That set me thinking...had I truely changed that much in the process? 

Had I really lost myself and lost who I truely am?

 

And sad to say....I agree with what she said, as i reflected onto the past me...

 

I seemed to have lost my personal touch, my over the artic coolness and my enthuism for life.

I've degraded and lost my sense of self...and am not doing justice to myself...(to quote)

 

It really served as a very good wakeup call to me as I pondered and reflected back...and indeed...yes...i have done injstice to myself and lost myself in the chase.

 

BUT..NO MORE...

 

I've spent too many a times feeling down and being engulfed in the darkness and it's time to 'pull up my socks' (Poppy pun for those who remembered) and to embrace the light once again. I do feel lighter at heart once I went back to the 'light'side (pun intended)

Afterall, I am walking down the sunshine path~

 

Of coz undeniably, I muz admit that thru-out, I've also got to learn more of myself and to accept my faults for what they are and to further work on and improve whereas at the same time, to truely shine out with what I'm best at...

 

Many thanks to those who had supported me and listerned to my whining previously...you people have been great frens, each and every one of you.
I know I muz have bored you people to death over my ramblin and I hope you wldnt mind. :)

 

Well,  nth much wld haf changed anyway and I'm still the same old me...just dat i'm coming back in style!

I did something wrong.

 

Troubled by my choice of actions.

 

Haiz.

FInally!...it's been like ages since I updated this blog...and of coz it's been ages ever since there's a public holiday!.

 

I've been counting down to the 10th of Apr ever since CNY..and finally it came!

Long Wkend~

I tot the application deadline for Masters was in Apr...and when I gotten serious to prepare for my application...turns out it was 2nd March...and I missed it by 1 week...

 

Darn.....gotta wait 1 more year for it...oh well...better make good use of my remaining year....

 

But still..................

And yes...it is with a heavy heart that leads me to this post....

 

as usual, i seldom find motivation to update here unless there are some things i need to think thru, or juz to pen down...

 

but right now....i feel dat i am standing at a cross-roads...

there are two possible routes to take (and no...back is not an option).....

 

both are equally dark and dangerous to tread on...were I to slip and fall, there would be no turning back and the path might juz crumble beneath me.

there's no direct light to guide my path...as much as i wish there is..signals aplenty for both roads...but were often mixed and can be miscontrue as the other

 

oh dere's 1 more thing too....1 of the path has that 'noi-giler' obstacle that has always bothered me for so long and made me think twice...even thou i think dis time the impact might be lesser as compared to the past....but..it's the mixed signals that's making me hold my horses...

Well...it's been kinda long since I've actually bothered to update this space....and i decided...yeah..why not...

and thus here I am..

 

The month of Feburary has juz passed by in the blink of an eye.

1st wk : CNY

2nd wk : ELT

3rd wk : ELT

4th wk : Clearing up all loose ends

 

and there u have it...my packed mth of Feb.

 

I still rmbr the 1st 3 days of the 1st wk was spent preparing for the CNY celebration...it was super busy for me..with the added unpredictability of the number of teams and response. Add that to the fact I will be mc-ing for the event just makes me more bz. However, I managed to pull it off and I was rather pleased with it myself..in order to reward my peeps...i decided to treat them lunch.

 

Nxt 2 wks were spent on ELT and preparing for the Friday presentation. Seriously..i tink the presentation course didnt really helped me much as i was already quite comfortable with speaking to masses (comes with experience... but 1 on 1 i might still be shy..haha!) BUt thats not the main pt.

 

Point is...ever since the 2nd Thurs of ELT, I've been going out till late...especially during teh wkends.i wld be like coming back on sat morning or sunday morning...and sometimes it might even be consectively! And needless to say..I spent quite a lot too.

 

This trend kept up till even last Sat or I shd say..Sun...and yeah..i went out again yest (it was Tues...waffles 1/2 price).

 

Was supposed to go gym today by xh flew aeroplane again as usual...ended up staying back in office for the Wii game try-out....

1st time seeing Aihwa and Jiyi so enthu thou...most of the time they were rather 'cool' lol...

Since Jiyi drove today..she gave me, Aihwa and Yvette a lift to the coffeeshop, with Bryant fetching Qiyu, Nicholas, Nasri and Vance.

We met Yuzhong and Flik at the coffeeshop..so we had our dinner 2gether and i took bus 21 back with them

 

All and all..I muz say it was fun staying back after work..and playing Wii in office!

Well, It's gonna be 2 wks since I came back frm taiwan, and boy do I miss that place.

I didnt really haf the mood to work since coming back last thursday and was juz dragging myself to work and hoping saturday to come by.

And yes it had been rather hectic for me as I got quite a number of mails to catch up and things to work on.

I spent the Thursday I came back reading thru mails and getting rdy my timeline for the CNY event. And rushing to get my work updated as per requested.

Friday was spent briefing the neccessary pple and clearing up loose ends at work.

 

Went to Chingay 2009 twice, once on fri and another time on sat.

Fri was wif my Archery peeps cum a send off dinner for Nic,

Sat was wif my hall pals, cum a 'overnite' over at bedok at their hse.

 

Monday and tuesday was spent juz trying to push off the event well, mtg all the related pple etc.

Pulled off a somewhat successful CNY event on Wed, and was rather surprised at the turnout rate.

 

Thursday was back to tying up all the work i left behind on mon/tues due to the event.

And friday-wise had a hectic monday due to an unexpected mail but likewise managed to settle it b4 11 to have a peaceful wkend.

 

Friday we had an early release frm DBS audit and so we went to stef's grandma wake at lavander, followed back to marina superbowl, had dinner ath marina food court, wanted watch movie but tics were selling fast and some didnt wan, so we ended at mind g ge cafe. We even managed to sabo yz up to stage and sing!

*I wld upload the vid asap, but i din haf it now*

 

 

Got free internet access here...so decided to make the full use of it before I call it a night.

Wun be staying long here anyway.

 

Juz some updates, it's about 9 degrees here.

Took a cab to the small hotel

ate ah chung mei sua

went taipei 101

went back xi meng ding, ate at the 'marton' restroom

and came back....

 

shall be doing my CNY shoppin at xi meng tmr for the whole day!

yay!, hoepfully can get stuff i wan....

Well, the previous post aside, I've decided to juz 以牙还牙and juz let it be.

2 can play at dis game i guess.

 

On a happier note...it's my favourite day of the week again!

 

 -----to be continued....knocking off at 3pm but rushing some work--------

 

OKie so in the end, I carried on bloging at ...(timecheck..1123pm) after coming back from my reunion dinner at toa payoh park.

 

Juz a brief on wad happened this week. Actually..nth much...hahah

Other den the above mentioned issue, this week was rather smooth sailing..

 

Work's picking up as deadlines become much closer.

 

Suggested to have a pre-CNY dinner (of-sorts) among some of my fellow colleagues and I 'tasked' adel to design and send the invite out.

Venue was chosen at Ding Tai Fung (Raffles City)as i wanted to have Asian food (CNY mah and it's considered central) and Wed was chosen as Stef had an appointment on Tues, Ai Hwa and Sok Hui flying off on Thurs.

I also called Sharon along to catch up. (Pics are up on Facebook) Afterwhich we went over to TCC @ City Link for deserts.

Saw Lwz and eeling, chai huat and boon hwee during my time in town

 

Was supposed to have another dinner wif my Archery exco peeps on Thurs, but as usual, since chwan was teh organiser..it nvr turns out quite the way we want it.

Ht called in sick, cs,ch, imy last minute OT. Den bobian, got to postpone it to after CNY le lor

 

And Friday came about....wanted to hav a long lunch since there isnt much mood to work (but of coz muz finsih up my work 1st la)

Turns out there's a lot of like-minded pple as we bumped into many pple at the bus stop...

1st there's the BTIT pple: cb, mark, mad & shir..who went century square for lunch.

2nd the ME pple: ts, yz, sh, zz + 1 jian an and 2 others i duno who, they planned to go TP for lunch

I was actually choosing btw TP or TM for lunch and since they were going TP, I figured it was a gd chance to follow them along and since most of us knoe each other quite well....the 6 of us joined the 7 of them..making it 13 pple.

 

Toked a lot of crap on the bus..and when we reached TP, we decided to go Business School for lunch.

Lunch was rather standard sch fare/feel...but I got to comment their tables and chairs were really old and run down.

 

After lunch, me, yuzhong and jian an decided to walk the grounds since we finished our food earlier.

And as I had been to TP b4 (IHG yr 2 or 3 handball), I brought them around.

As we were walking to the SRC and back,we passed by this bunch of young little girls twice. (duhz..of coz young la) wearing formal wear..most likely had presentation..

They were chatting rather noisly but as we walked passed them, they suddenly quieten down and looked as us. ( as if we were aliens....okie so i admit we're older, but hey, we were in jeans and shirt..not even formal wear..we shd be able to blend in yar?) and once we walked pass them..they suddenly burst out toking again...(hmm..smth wrong wif us?)

 

Met up wif the rest of the pple at the bus stop..and on the journey back, decided to make fun of yz and we told teh rest about 'wad happened', wif jian an adding a lot of spices such as ' oh overheard the girls saying :"that guy in pink very cute~!" ' [yz was the one wearing pink]

hahaha, which made much entertainment while on the bus...

 

we oso toked about the possibilty of the taiwan trip (in apr) which me and yz mentioned few wks back...

 

Oh and before I sign off, here's wishing a;; my avid readers (if any) an early Happy Lunar 牛 Year!

I'll be flying off on Sat morning and thus wun be ard for the CNY.....but do feel free to sms me!

Had been on a lousy mood ever since last week....

 

seriously..who even bothers reading this space anymore?

those who do please kindly leave a message thank you.

i would deeply appreciate it...seriously i do

 

1 of my frens said how come I was affected by such a thing so much.

Truthfully, I have no idea.

To myself, I said it's no big deal, but deep down, I kept questioning.

 

It's as if a sudden midnight 360 degrees change, which was so drastic till I kept wondering why.

And things doesnt seem to have improved since......

 

here i am, trying to be a listerning ear and a consoling person but it seems aft that period,

i was jzu used, and left to thrown behind.

 

this suxs you knoe.

 

okie maybe i'm juz tinking too much and reading too much in btw the lines, but i juz wanna get it out of my system.

 

and i doubt anyone would understand what i'm trying to say here.

it's a well established fact dat i write and blog in riddles when i'm not exactly in a positve mood.

Wad better day den it is today to post an entry on my blog to welcome the new year?

Hahah!

And thus another year has passed and another year comes.

 

Many things happened in the past year:
some things happy;

some things sad;

some things to be remembered;

some things better left forgotten;

some things i'll rather go through again;

some things i'll rather not experience forever.

 

People that I've met:

some frens whom I met while travelling the world;

some frens whom no matter the years nor distance are still close frens;

some frens whom became closer frens;

some frens whom somehow faded away;

some frens whom haf broken up;

some frens whom are getting married;

some frens whom I've not caught up wif for (a) decade;

some frens whom i got to know just recently.

 

To sum 2008 up, I;ve embarked onto the next phase of my life and in chronological order:

 

I started 2008 with my last semster in NUS, finished my FYP, gotten my 1st ever A+ in NUS.

Travelled half the world away to Europe and spent 3 weeks backpacking there, being lost in a country where they dun speak English, getting rejected at the borders and recieving my 1st ever 'Denied Entry' stamp on my passport.

Applied for the NUS Masters program, gotten in, but rejecting it at the very last minute.

Got myself a new PSP

Gotten my 1st job and recieving my 1st paycheck.

Joining the 'Quater-of-a-Century' club.

 

The last few days of 2008 had been most hectic and enjoyable,

1stly we had a pre-xmas 00S36 gathering at Jon's hse, and it's a reminder of how much time had passed compared to when we were once our innocent selves during JC times. 2ndly, a semi-exco gathering at Weiquan's hse after xmas just to catch up with the jnrs.

 

Tuesday: Caught the movie Bedtime Stories which I had wanted to watch ever since seeing the trailer with fellow IBM-ers (xh, jy, sharon, alvin, yz, adel, sh, sf)

Wednesday: Went to wc/ch/rk/erwin's rented flat for a new yr's eve steamboat dinner 2gether with Liting, afterwhich had supper with phyllis, yz and xh at East Coast.

Thursday: And as i'm typing this now, I would be going to Clara's hse later in the evening for dinner with my hall peeps

Friday: Angela's wedding dinner over at Mariott hotel, afterwhich maybe rush down to Aloha Changi for the arhcery chalet

Saturday: Celebrating my grandmother's birthday

 

And this thus ends off my 2008 and kick starts my 2009.

 

My New Year resolution?

More job opportunites for me to shine

A successful Masters application (again)

And hopefully...meeting my other half...

 

Here's a happy New Year to everone whom actually read my long-winded post!

Cheers!

I was reminded that it's been quite a while since I last blogged.

 

Well undeniably, that's the truth I admit it. But somehow, there wasnt any motivation to blog about anything at all. A fren of mine blogged about why more pple blog when times are bad, lamenting the bad times. However, I would bet to differ. I believe people blog when there's a surge of emotions, irregardless of good times, or bad times.

Which, I tink, is exactly depicing wad i've been doing all along.

 

More often den not, I find myself onli blogging when I'm happy, or down...or if the day has an usual occurance which I feel I should just pen it down.

Of coz, not all my blog entries are corrigible, and at times, I tend to write in between the lines, with hidden meanings here and dere. Or maybe wad I wrote wldnt even make sense to you. Well fret not, coz if you are able to fully understand what I wrote, you would be a literature prodigy.

 

I'm not saying I'm one, thou lemme bhb here, I muz admit my literacy skills aint dat bad...and so's my command of language. Haha...which most people around me doesnt believe at all. Which is fine by me i guess, coz as my PC once taught me, repect is what you earn.

 

Life have been rather good for me, in certain aspects, but rather down in others.

Those who are up-to-date on my life should need no further elaboration.

 

Sometimes I do wonder, are the things I do even worth much of the effort.

My dad's story about reciprocation have always been next to my heart. But apparently, not many people share nor holds true to this belief.

This is a rather sad thing I feel, coz human beings are not a solitary living thing. As the saying goes, 'no man is an island', thus giving, sharing and accepting are all part and parcel of life. And thru that, we evolve into a better human being.

 

Okie, maybe I'm getting a bit emo-ish here...but pardon me coz here I am, still stuck in office, while 90% of the pple have orde left.

 

Last but not least, a merry chirstmas to everyone out there!